ponies ponies everywhere

Firstly I'm writing this whilst watching Comic Relief and Snow Patrol were fricking amazing and Lifening makes me cry and it was all just beautiful and I can never make it to 'a father like my Dad' before crying like a baby and Gary is my hero. 
So last Saturday I had another horsey day, which was pretty hilarious even though Molly went lame (sad face, but she's fine now!), Sparkie frustrated me, I frustrated myself and Victor was a bit awkward.. but it was such a good day, even better seeing as I didn't have work, yay! Here are some pictures..

good ponies! Managed to get a bit of riding in this week now that the days are getting lighter yay! Rode Jack and he was a bit nappy and rushed a bit, but he's only three so he's most definitely forgiven seeing as 90% of the time he's perfect! Also lunged Sparkie over some fences which was pretty hilarious, as he just ran round the school having a whale of a time while I ran behind him clinging on to the lunge rope...'twas fun! 

Beth, Sparkie, Jack & Carling :) xxx

because tack is over rated..

hello peoples! so today I completed one of my life time goals..I rode Sparkie tackless! Not the first time I've ever done it I'll admit it, but it's the first time I've managed to get pictures and    we haven't done it in ages, so yay :) It's been something I've been working on for a few weeks and it hasn't really gone exactly to plan... he understands neck reining and listening to your seat really well, however he has a bit of a habit of climbing out the arena or running through the fence, so it's not really practical to try it in the outdoor as I honestly wouldn't put it past him to jump the fence with me or something crazy! so today we tried in the indoor and even though we didn't exactly have maximum control he went really nicely..better than he does with tack!? I will never understand this pony eh...

Also, we went for our first hack of the year on Saturday which was...interesting to say the least. He's not the best pony to hack and our first time out in a while is always a bit of a hairy experience..to sum it up, we got lost, ended up staying out for 6 hours and I had to get off three times! The first time was when he had a fit down a little country road, spining round, napping and threatening to rear for what seemed like no apparent reason, but when I got off and lead him, it turned out there were pigs round the corner so I'll let him off! The second time however, was the same shannigans, but over a pile of mud this time..not quite as forgivable there sparks! And then the third time was simply because his saddle slipped back, haha, oh I do love having a small pony! 

Goodbye for now mon amies! xxx

happiness.

Well, I will warn you in advance, this blog is likely to be full of emotional cheese...you have been warned.
So, I was sitting down the other day just pondering life, yanoo as you do, and it kind of just hit me...life isn't actually all that bad. And for some reason, I'm not too sure what's possessed me, but I felt the need to write this blog, so when things are not so good, I can read this and realise just how great life actually is at the moment.
 Last week I officially made the decision that I wouldn't be competing Sparkie this year. After having such a crap season of it last year, we'd pretty much decided to give up with him anyway, but recently I'd been umming and aaahing not sure whether to give it another chance, but then last Wednesday I finally made a decision. The sun was shining, I jumped him with no martingale, no fancy tack, no extras, just a simpe snaffle bridle, we got our strides wrong, we cat leapt, stopped, had a good gallop, almost fell of a couple of times.. we had fun. It just made me think, this is why I brought this pony, this is why I've stuck with him for so long, because he's fun and actually, I really won't miss not taking him to shows, because that isn't fun for us. Making that decision has literally felt like a weight off my shoulders!
plus(if it wasn't cheesy enough allready!) I just got thinking about a lot of other things. Over the last three years, I will openly admit that I have really, really struggled. I'm obviously not going to write my whole life story on the internet and I'm definately not looking for the sympathy vote, as I know people who've been through a hell of a lot worse. I never realised how much I took my family and my horses for granted before, I was one of those kids who read stories in magazines or watched other kids in the playground worrying over family things and I used to feel sorry for them, but never worry because 'it would never be me', which I think is partly why I completely lost a grip on anything. It's hard to really put down in words without seeming like a pathetic loser(hehe) the feeling of being lost. There is no way to understand what it feels like to not want to be alive unless you've ever felt like that.
 But the other day, I sat down and realised to myself, that actually I really, really like my life now. Maybe change isn't always good, but you can learn over time to cope with change, to accept it and look onto the future instead of wishing for the past. I have so many amazing friends right now, the most beautiful horse that I am immensley proud of and my awkwardly adorable little pony that made me feel life could actually be ok sometimes, who I will have a whole 5 years this year(crazaaaaay).
 May have some exciting news soon, fingers crossed, I really, really hope this goes ahead as it would be perfect for me! Bring on the rest of 2013...
 Now I just have to hope no one ever finds this or reads it and thinks I'm a total moron, muahahha, please no D:
love Bef, Sparkmeister, Jackalina & C-Dawg.